Psalm 25:5 “Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.”
“Papa,” that is what my three year old granddaughter calls her grandpa, “What is on your arm, Papa?” He looked down at his arm and said, “Finley, that is hair; Papa has a lot of hair on his arms.” She looked up at him and in the most innocent of replies said, “Papa, did it fall off your head?” An honest question asked by an inquisitive little girl. She is at the age when she questions everything, and of course, this is how she will learn by having answers to her questions. There are some things we can answer that a three year old can understand. We cannot explain to her the physical changes that happen to a balding papa that would make any sense to her.
There are events in our life that often times have no answers. That is where our struggle can often lead us down a dark path. We can find ourselves on the verge of rebellion and turning our back on the Lord. Can you feel the struggle going on inside of you? In your mind, are you questioning everything, even if you can believe in this God who says He loves you? I found myself in that struggle in my grief. It was when I finally did let go of the questions that had their hold on me that I found myself falling into a place of submission and acceptance. I came to understand that not all things that happen to us have an answer we could possibly understand here on earth. There is no reason God could explain to me why our children had to die before us. Nothing could possibly make any sense to us. We have many questions when we face this hardest of trials and we need to ask them, but we also need to be able to accept the answers. The answer comes in surrendering and accepting something we cannot change or ever understand.
Abba Father, in this time of grief, we are just like my three year old granddaughter, full of questions and unable to understand the answer. Help us to surrender to Your will and to accept something we cannot change or understand.
