Psalm 137:4 “How can we sing the songs of the Lord while in a foreign land?”
We have many events in our life that occur that change our day to day living. Some of these events we have planned and are fully aware we are stepping into uncharted waters. Marriage is one of those things we plan and have no idea of the changes it will bring in our everyday existence. The moment we become a mom we are in for one of the biggest life changing events of all. We soon find ourselves walking around with our heart on the outside being stretched beyond anything we could have prepared ourselves for.
All of these events change who we are and what we do each and every day. My life was changed by each of these things, but I can honestly tell you, nothing has impacted me more in my life than the death of my daughter. I felt like a foreigner in this life I had been so familiar with. This one event had me question almost every aspect of who I was and what I believed as truth. I looked at my marriage, my relationships with family and friends and saw there were many changes I needed to make. I had taken so many things for granted, not living a life filled with an attitude of gratitude. There was not one area of my life that did not go under the microscope.
My faith and belief in God went through the biggest transformation. Did I believe everything I had said I believed? I soon discovered I had talked the talk, but it was now time to walk the walk. My faith had never been challenged like this before. In other words, my life did not depend on it. I can now say, “I have full confidence in my Lord and Savior.” I rely on Him for each and every breath I take. Post traumatic stress disorder is a term used to describe the aftermath of a tragic event that happens in one’s life. I think we can also experience post traumatic stress growth. It usually is a crisis in our lives that wakes us up and helps us to change the direction in which we were headed. We usually experience immense growth after we have experienced a tragedy in our life. We can take this tragic event that has thrown us in a foreign land and through our day to day small steps of trust in God find a new place to live.
Lord, through these children we have lost may we find ourselves better women.
– Michele
