Romans 11:33 “Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out.”
I struggled for the longest time to find a reason why God would take my daughter from us at such a young age. She had her whole young life ahead of her. I would often pray, “Why, Lord, why my daughter, why my family?” As time has gone on I have seen many people whose lives have been changed because of this tragic event, most of all, my family. There have been so many blessings that have encompassed our lives, but I still wonder if my first question to the Lord will be, “Couldn’t You have come up with a better plan?” Sometimes there is so much devastation in the loss of a child, that it is hard to see a reason. We struggle to figure out what God is doing. God could come down and give me a reason for each loss, but none of it could possibly make sense to my finite mind. Maybe there is not a reason for every situation. Maybe we are just supposed to learn valuable lessons in the trials. Lessons like, “Be still, and know that I am God,” or that the secret things belong to God.
When I was a young girl my mom had a saying that would make me so mad when she would say it. When I would want to do something or go somewhere she did not approve of, her pat answer would be, “Because I said so.” I would often argue with her. I felt that was not a good reason and I deserved a better explanation than, “Because I said so.” Now that I am older, I realize she knew what was best for me and was trying to protect me. She knew I would never understand her reason no matter how many explanations she gave me. Are you struggling to make sense of your loss? We are at that legendary fork in the road. We can continue to wonder and wander through the rest of our lives trying to understand something that is beyond our comprehension, or we can choose to worship the deep things of God and embrace the mystery which we will come to understand the day we enter into eternity. One way will lead us to despair, anger and bitterness; the other way is our faith in action which trusts in the mystery of God. It is faith in the deep things of God that will sustain us in the hard times.
Lord, I pray we will realize we will not always make sense of the things that happen to us in our lives. The loss of our dear children can never make sense to us. It is in the deep mystery of You, as we walk side by side with You, where we can find our peace and comfort.
-- Michele
